how to disappear completely

i got up this morning and i felt good, and the morning was ok and i even found two pennies at lunch, and im pretty sure everyone is pretty much aware of my proclivity towards feeling that finding a penny means good things and then over the course of the day it was a slow nose dive into feeling tired as fuck and sore and my head feels dry and scratchy on the inside which it shoudnt cause i had like three bottles of water today.
i started off the day with Born on the Bayou and now ive got 10000 days on in two rooms on repeat.
im going to go take a shower and then im going to lay on the floor surrounded by speakers and turn up the sub and just stare at the ceiling for a while.

how to disappear completely